So many paths I could take.....

So how do we know which ones right?

Being a a "young adult" the age old question "What do I want to be when I grow up?" has officially come back to haunt me.  Only this time, the answer can not be what it was when I was a kid.  I would answer"princess" as a lot of little girls do.  However, hours and days and months of prayer, I know "what" God is leading me to become.... but not the problem is, how to get there.  I know He is calling me to be a full-time over seas missionary.  But with that, comes so many more questions.  For how long?  Where? One place or many places?  How do I have a family?  Can I be a missionary mom?  How does that even work? What is my future husband does not want that life?  How would I support my family if I had one? I would I support myself? These questions lingered in my head for days. However, today, on the airplane flying home I starting asking God these questions instead of asking myself. And this is what happened....

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Well, that's awesome God, would you like to share these plans with me?

In time.

How much time?

When you are ready.

I'm ready now!

Patience my child.

I don't have any of that.....

Now your getting it.... wait for my plan.  Its going to be worth it.


 At first, this was the most frustrating conversation I have had in a while, conversations with God tend to be for me, because I can never win.  I have realized though, that peace is not when everything around you is calm, peace is when everything around you is falling apart and you know in your heart that you are okay that God is holding you and He is not going to drop you, no matter what.  I am still praying for peace over the uncertainties in my life.  However, I am not sure where God is leading me, but I do know one thing.   No one needs to grow up to be a prince or a princess.  We all already are royalty, because of the blood of Christ.  So where am I now?  I am a princess.  And I am going to wait patiently (attempt)  until the King of all Kings tells me my next move.